This week, you'll be impressed to know, I broke not one, but two personal records. And neither one involved gin! First, I didn't leave my apartment for three days straight, which isn't exactly a feat I've never accomplished before, but until this week I had yet to do so in New York. Even though I work from home, I can usually find some excuse to get out during the day, even if it's just a lunch date or a quick trip to Duane Reade to pick up some macaroons. But when temps took a dramatic plunge on Tuesday after near-Spring like weather on Sunday and Monday, I retaliated by staying parked indoors until today when I broke my second personal record of the week: I got my hair cut for the first time in four months.
Four months! Back in the days when I had so much hair to spare, I scheduled hair cuts like kids in Des Moines schedule trips to the mall. Even between appointments with my stylist, I'd often take matters into my own hands — quite literally — and chop away at my hair over the bathroom sink, aiming for anything that might make me a cuter, younger, hipper version of myself. I'd like to say after MulletGate, I wisened up and just left my hair alone to grow out, but for the next 2 1/2 years, I continued to seek the help of paid professionals even as they urged me to give it a rest, assured me that the longer I went without a cut, the sooner my hair would be long again. But I couldn't resist the cathartic snip-snip of their scissors, the sweet release of all that emotional weight I carried around on my head.
It's a learning process — this letting go...and letting grow. Aside from trimming my bangs just a couple of times in the past few months, I'm proud to say I haven't taken a pair of scissors to my hair one time since, like, last June. That's like a smoker not having a drag off a cigarette in as long a time. And this isn't the only thing I'm trying slowly to change about myself, either. There are other things — more important things: resolutions and goals I made for myself this year that I hope will turn into life-long habits. But it's hard. These things mean confronting stuff about myself I don't particularly like, stuff I'm not proud of, and facing quite a lot of fears and insecurities I've been denying for a long time.
Anyway, it's Thursday night, Drew is cooking dinner, there's a bottle of wine breathing and we've got a pile of movies and some good TV on the agenda. The fears and issues will still be here to tackle tomorrow.
Wow. I just started experimenting with my hair. I am slowly gaining confidence with my new shears. They are a nice lavender hue and inspiring some sweet cuts! But I'll try not to become addicted!
http://www.salonhive.com/kamisori-lavender-hair-shears.html
Posted by: Tierra | February 06, 2009 at 05:58 AM
Wow, that's pretty impressive about not leaving the apt. I've never even come close to that record!
And as for the hair, post photos! I'd love to see. I'm picturing something super cute, like a bob or a pixie.
Posted by: teahouseblossom | February 06, 2009 at 06:11 AM