Over It

You may have noticed that I failed to post anything on Saturday and then I failed to post anything on Sunday and since I was supposed to be NaBloPoMo'ing this month, I am clearly in violation. It wasn't that I forgot or anything. I was quite aware of it all day on Saturday, actually. My sister has been visiting and during the day of wandering around and sight-seeing and introducing her to karaoke, I kept thinking about what I might post. Then I got home and we started a movie (Grizzly Man) and it was still on my mind, what I should post about. I was tired and not feeling creative or in the mood to write. It'd been a long day of cruising around the city and I just wanted to shut my mind off, drink a beer and watch some dude get eaten by a grizzly bear. I thought about writing a little haiku about it, or making a short list of what we'd done that day, or you know, something equally as interesting and exciting  and entertaining for all of you to read on your Saturday nights and then I thought, "what's the fucking point?" And so I turned off my computer and drank a beer and watched some dude get eaten by a bear instead. In bed as we were drifitng to sleep, I whispered to Drew in the dark, "I didn't post anything on my blog today." And he said, "Good for you. Who fucking cares?" And it felt so good to hear, I drifted to sleep so soundly like a baby and decided to skip posting the next day too!

So in conclusion, NaBloPoMo is not for me. I did enjoy writing more frequently, but like unanswered emails or one more annoying thing on my to-do list, the daily post just made me feel like there was another thing hanging over my head all the time, and really, a hobby shouldn't feel like a chore. You may also guess correctly that I am the kind of person who, if about 25 pages into a book, I'm still not enjoying myself, I close the fucking thing and never think twice about it...no matter how many good reviews its gotten. I'm also not shy abotu walking out on movies that suck. I mean, life's too short and already full enough with boring stuff you have to do, why add boring stuff you don't have to do?

So, with no more further ado, let's now return to previously scheduled programming...that is actually not scheduled at all, but will happen spontaneously and when I have something very, very important to say! Like what I ate for lunch.

Comments

[Nick]

Indeed, keep it spontaneous, that's the best way. Good for you on the 25 boring pages and it's history principle. Though I prefer around 100 pages myself - some books take a while to get into their stride. And likewise I refuse to plough on just because it's got a zillion awards - some books just seem to become flavour of the month even if they're crap on toast.

[brookem]

I loved this post! I didn't do the namopoblofosho deal, for the same reasons you mentioned. In theory, it seems like it could be a fun, good idea, but I know me, and I know I just wouldn't be able to keep up. And I'm so totally with you on the chucking a book if it's not good after the first several pages. It's just not worth it!
Although I have enjoyed your frequent extra posting of late, I don't blame you a bit that you're done with the whole daily thing, and look forward to reading your more sporadic posts to come!

[Scarlett]

Obviously... I don't bother with NAMOPOBLO. I can barely get the time to post at all with 2 jobs.

There are far more important things... like watching a man getting eaten by a grizzly!

I'm glad you enjoyed your weekend and ignored your blog. It means you have a life that goes beyond the Interwebs and that should be important to your readers. It means more blog fodder because that is where the good stuff comes from.

[Nilsa S.]

Amen, sister! You hit the nail on the head - exactly why I didn't participate in NaBloPoMo. Too much responsibility to do something we should enjoy. No way. I'm glad to hear you ditched NaBloPoMo in favor of special time with loved ones!

[Matt]

You gave it a good run. I hope inspiration strikes you reasonably frequently! Besides breakfast and dinner, what could be more a important topic than lunch? :-) Grizzly Man is an interesting film to puzzle over, even beyond the simple fact of the unbalanced man's demise at the hands of his favorite animals.

[Kyla Bea]

Good call Wendy - I prefer quality over quantity, no matter how much I love reading your blog. Hope you were able to show your sister a good time in your new home!

[teahouseblossom]

Hahahaha, yeah. I decided not to try to do that. I'd drive myself crazy, on top of my already-crazy schedule!

And I got your email..let's definitely hang soon! This weekend is bad b/c we have pre-Cana again, but maybe the following weekend?

[Alice]

Hey Wendy -- good on you! Sounds like a wise choice. I started keeping my blog in January of this year and my posts have been, shall we say, sporadic, to say the least! And I sometimes get on my own case about not posting often enough, but I know that I will post when I'm feeling the inspiration and when I really want to, and I just feel like that's how blogs should work. I also know there's a certain element of "disciplining myself" in there, and the fact that I have a hard time doing that, but because it's something I do for pleasure, I don't want it to become an obligation either.

And BOY do I hear you on the books -- I used to insist on finishing a book, no matter what, and I would force myself to plug along through it, even if I wasn't enjoying it at all. And then earlier this year I had a similar random revelation: yep, that life is too short, and there are too many other GREAT books out there that I WANT to read! So I'm not going to guilt myself into finishing something just because supposedly gazillions of other people loved it. (Harry Potter comes to mind -- just not my cup o' tea, and I'm not ashamed to admit it!) Plus, reading and our choice of books is just so subjective -- the one book I ADORE may be something that someone else I know would loathe, so why force that book on someone else? I do of course suggest good reads from time to time, but I try not to push the issue if the person has completely different tastes. It's entirely understandable: the human experience, for each one of us, is just so unique -- of course our tastes are going to be different! So bestseller-schmestseller, if you ask me.

[GrizzBabe]

Good for you. I'm impressed that you made it this far. I would have quit around day 5.

[Natalee]

Yeah, this year will be my last NaBloMyMo. I've struggled and put some real crap and filler on the blog, simply because I didn't have the time or feel like coming up with something.